And Then Came Change

I can't believe it's been nearly 3 months since I last posted something on here. I was amazed at some of the comments I read on my last post. HAHA to be honest some made me laugh. I wonder what could make someone think so ill about God. That reminds me of a concert I went to last Friday; Scream the Prayer. The headliner was Haste the Day but a bunch of Christian metalcore bands were there. Anyway, what I wanted to get at was the instance where Sleeping Giant's Thommy Green started to pray and sing "Oh Praise Him" while in the back, some non-Christian kids were yelling "Satan, Satan!" The awesome thing was that no one got mad or hurt. We just ignored it and the kids just stopped. It was then that Thommy shared his struggles and told the kids about God. Believe it or not, some of those same kids went to them after the show to learn about God all because we reacted to their ignorance with love.
So basically what I'm trying to say is, go ahead. Write weird comments in reply to my posts, believe what you want to believe. I'm not going to argue or counter what you think. You have free will. Do as you please with it. However, know that you are just wasting time expressing hatreed cause I'm not reacting to it. Honestly, I find it awesome how a lot of people find my love for God weird and retarted. Why should I be ashamed for something I feel so strongly about?
With that said, I want to talk about my last post. I read someone's comment that said something like, "I once used to be religous but now I'm not and I'm happier." I'd like to say that I don't buy any of it. Of course, being far away from God is easier. That's what Satan wants. Yea, I know some of you will "rofl" at that but who do you think is responsible for all the sick and just plain evil stuff going on around us? You really think its God? Or maybe you think it's just the corrupt government? Yeah right. Satan wants everyone to hate God, make fun of him, curse him, etc. But honestly, he would rather have all of us dead and in hell than to have us hear about God or even consider thinking about Him.
I'll give you a real life example of this. I have a close friend who had been an Atheist her entire life. Her motto was simply, "F*** God." Everytime I told her about God, she would tell me, "Lets not talk about religion." Until one day she called me crying and asked me, "Why is everything in my life f***ed up and your life so f***ing perfect?" My life perfect?! Far from it. But she saw how passionate my love for God is, she saw how I treated the people around me, she saw how close I am with my family, she saw how music inspired me, she saw all these things and knew that I had something that she didn't. This is coming from a girl who lives in freaking mansion, gets everything she wants, is beautiful, and is engaged to the man of her dreams and she was asking me why her life was so messed up. From my end, she had everything, everything but one thing. God. I started to tell her about everything that I could about how much God cared fpr her; how he sent his son to die for her; how he shed his blood to pay for everything she has and will do and above all how much he loved her. And she told me, "the only reason I don't believe like you do is because I've never felt like he actually cared." Her life changed that day, as she sarted getting to know more about God but one day she just stopped. She turn to her old habits and now she finds herself "as happy as ever," when in reality, she is broken on the inside. Giving herself to drugs, sex, and alcohol to forget all the crap around her. But I refuse to sit back and watch her waste her life away. How do I show her that? I stand by her through it all. If she needs someone, she knows she can count on me. Isn't that what a real Christian should do?
See, most of the world has this notion that Christians are a bunch of religious, Jesus loving pricks who hate homosexuals, don't have lives, and are a waste of air. It's true that a lot of Christians are close-minded and are ignorant when it comes to other points of view. But I'll tell you something. Being a Christian is not about going to church 2 to 3 times a week, wearing WWJD? bracelets, and caring a Bible in your pocket, although all those things are good. Being a real Christian is about showing anyone and everyone God's love through your actions and words. It's giving to the needy, it's helping those who are hurt, it's pouring out your life for others, it's about being the best you can be and knowing that you can't live this life according to your own will. Believe me, you'll fail and if you don't think you will, it will still leave you empty and completely dissatisfied.
Brian "Head" Welch, ex lead guitarist of Korn became a Christian not too long ago and in his book "Washed by Blood" he says he had everything. Music, sex, drugs, alcohol, money and still he wanted to kill himself because nothing satisfied him. He found God and his life changed.
I know it's hard to believe any of this but take it from someone who has been through hell and made it through by finding the real face of God. It's not religion. It's not bs. It's truth.
In reference to my suicidal thoughts and depression, those times have ended. I hit rock bottom but God lifted me and gave me a new life, a new meaning, and a new purpose. I thought I could fix it on my own but he was the one who showed me that life isn't about us and our problems, our whims, and our desires but about His love.

L.O.V.E By Brian "Head" Welch This is a little taste of what God really thinks

I gave you everything all the pain life brings just to get you to come back to Me
I want to give you light I don't want to ever fight, Stop resisting and come home to me...
You're so afraid of love there's not much time.. All the pain inside just makes you want to die..
Love Me, Don't hate Me, You're angry it's ok, trust Me come this way live in eternity...
I'm the real drug to take to numb your heartache stop running and come back to Me I've had it up to here I cried way too many tears you'll keep suffering until you come to Me outside you act so tough but inside you cry all the pain inside just makes you want to die
Love Me don't hate Me you're angry it's ok trust Me come this way live in eternity your soul is mine I don't want to fight your soul is mine don't be unkind your soul is mine I don't want to lie I swear you'll never die stay alive when I restore all mankind
Love Me don't hate Me you're angry it's ok trust Me come this way live in eternity come see you'll soon won't feel guilty and be set free


God Bless you guys and know that God really does care about what you are going through. Just give Him a chance. You have nothing to lose.